its been ages..
n to make me write this one is because yesterday i blow up my usually cheery face at my one of closest fren..how i CANT blow up..when shes going to tell a guy and a guy that lives with the person involved..that i like him!..ok fine maybe i like him..maybe i feel awfully piss off when i know hes involved and more piss off when the person hes involved once told me off about him..and to add salt into that ..i kinda like him as a fren first so when people start making me stop the flirting ..i truly gladly back off from that ..
so when something involving him and involving his name, of course im going to be piss off..she is happy with him..and i dont want to know anything about them being happy coz i know they are happy..so i dont want any stupid thingy in the past to make me feel sucks..
so im insecure ..i hate people knowing that but hell who isnt..! i have very bad rep of falling in love / like with person that i am close with..i have a very bad rep also of being the sweet, cute , lovey person but not the person to get in to a relationship with..
so im AM INSECURE! i hate guys more after the last incident involving certain someone back in highschool , never did fully hate him enough cause typical me to like people first as a fren than a potential crush..
so when the incident of blowing up happen..i do realize its kinda stupid, but seriously !..i am a private person .. i dont advertise my whole entire secret to anybody, and i am truly protective to all the persons that i like..even that person dont know, i do back them up when people is talking shit about them..
so when this incident happen in front of a guy fren of this person..what is my first reaction..?..
of coz to shut the mouth before letting out the NAME..
i hate the situation...i hate him and i hate for confessing it to like it to my frenz..coz im not into him that much ok..! im in to somebody else..its just he a nice guy,and i tend to like people that are nice and easy to handle me..not some jerk guy like my bestfriend who by the way the story need a new entire post ....so we are cool frenz rite now..not that COOL like before the couple with her..but cool enough..so i just want to maintain that.. i dont want any gossiping around my back, i dont any people to start stories that are stupid and presuming..cause im hell will be very piss off..im into gossiping, but im not into making stories about relationship ..except involving my best friends..like i said thats entirely new post to tell THAT story..
so i dont want to stop talking with him ..and ok im not talking, but tomato,tamato...patato,potato..get what i mean?..
