MC, wisdom tooth and pain..

Ive got a medical leave today..wow..the first for this year?..i cant remember the last time ive got a MC..usually i get sick but normally i just pull my AL and just put it on MC, coz in J company when you get a MC in your attendance you dont get a bonus or salary raise..*thats one of the reason i quit..;)*..sooooo, my wisdom teeth are finally growing and let me tell you, whatever things that Jasmine said about the pain..ITS DAMN TRUE!!..coz it hurts like hell!!..good luck this week we dont have any tenders or any potential tenders coming in..because on of the reason i dislike MC coz i am YES a WORKHOLIC..i like holidays and such but i hate when i have to spend it at home thus the terms WORKHOLIC..cos i like to be in the office more than home?..nahhh, cos in the office now, ive got to talk and bitch about people and we got unifi ok..so yes, i prefer places where my internet is effing fast and there is people for me to talk to.
not to say i dont like my home, i love it..but when i work, i dont think about how sucky my past relationships and how i hate missing him..so work is my escape from my memories..it is sad when you think about it, but its my mechanism to survive until i can truly say " I am over with him "..hurmmmm...depressing mode tiba2..shit..

BUT whatever is, i have a day off today so lets make it worthwhile..i.e: continue reading my comics and novel online(check), playing with little archie(check), watching movies(check), eat your medicine before writing this post(opppsss, i forgot)...

So later...~~~...

P/s: just saw MI4(Ghost Protocol) and it was AMAZING...!!!!Tom Cruise is the best!..and Jeremy Renner?..*swoon*...

Friendship, Starbucks and Pelita...

Its a weird thing about friendship..
As you know, true friend/s will just accept you no matter what you do and what you are right?..
I have many experience of this so called thing "FRIENDSHIP"..but the one that i hope and i pray to god that will never go away is them...
Because in a way every person has their own personality that they bring in a friendship..Dont get me wrong, i always and will always call Mulan a bitch everytime she do the eye roll thingy..I will always be annoyed and irritate with Ariel on her attitude of not picking up the phone when i need her the most..Of wanting to smack Jasmine head when shes being insecure..but hell, im a bitch most of the time too..im an annoying person mostly ALL the time and i am very judgmental when i want to be that person. But we click...we click in sense of everybody need to branch out and have their own circle of friends but basically coming back together and be our true selves.

Yesterday we have our little gathering in Pelita, but before that me and Mulan have our usual caffeine fix at starbucks (bcoz hell!..im already addicted with the taste!..and shit it costs me RM17.50 everytime i drink it, but its my indulgence once a week so sue me for backing up a jewish company or whatsoever!..)
Btw, Mulan drink are shit and taste like grass or Jasmine said " Rasa macam ko minum daun", and yes it taste like "daun"..the drink?..Its called Green Tea Cream Blended..and mine its called Mocha something with cranberry sauce on top..*its a christmas drink promo and i LOVE IT!!..*

Here is some pictures just for the sake of my entertainment..:)



Mine..



Mulan's....


SO btw about friendship, we have our ups and downs as a group, we sometimes bitch about each other, hate each other but in the end truly-truly i do love this girls..I even haves exes that hate them, because i talk to them about everything includes my love life and what im doing now with my boyfriend, my argument with my boyfriend ..But basically that i do love them so much, and sometimes we do get on each other nerves and hated each other at one point, but like Mulan said to me yesterday * i paraphrase her words, of course.."Maybe we just need to delete any hateness and grudges coz value of friendship is much higher than our own egos.."..

So later..;)..♥...

Its all about MONEY!

Its all about money in life..there is never in one person life money its not a subject..Like one statement in Jerry Maguire " SHOW ME THE MONEY!"...

i have countless of person telling me money is like the thing that keep the world go round..and actually yes i agree with them..know why?..coz i can be the breadwinner in a relationship or in a marriage but nak xnak ah kan, guys have to step up and earn my respect by providing for me lahh..come on ahh...damnnn that is one messed up relationship, when a woman/girl pleases a guy by buying his affection?..
it should be the other way round ok!..i live in a house where my father buys stuff for my mother not my mother buy gifts for him!..and that is what i will always keep in mind..coz in the end, no matter how much money you earn in a living, the guy have to pay the bills for the house..hell!..

Money is a sensitive subject. Thats why i never borrow money except my mom..why?..
in the end, when my mom talk or yell about money to me, i accept it wholeheartedly. but for others to do it for me?..come on!...i hate it!

btw, i had made stupid and wrong decisions of lending people money along my days when i was in love and being stupid. to tell the truth, it is still my worst effing mistakes ever!!!..so lesson learned!..until now, i had money pending on loan from that person..and they had the guts to tell me "so macam nie perangai u sebenarnya, pasal duit u treat i mcm nie?.."..mcm apa ???..mcm binatang kerr???..coz the last time, u said that u will paid me back within 2 months and its been like a year asshole!..who is the animal now?..you or me?...dont treat me like a stupid person coz sorry to say i was stupid once but never again!...

So whatever dude, its already over before it begins..dont start a relationship with so many excess baggage from the past coz it will (and trust me on this) haunt you back!..i love being single than to handle all this emotional crap about money, messaging, calling, hanging out and family..

So Later~...

Eff up and starbucks..

Its eff up when sometimes you think you want somethings or someone but in the end you know the time is not right for you to be in a something or someone with somebody..

Mess up aite?..

So whatever, stop being a douche person Aurora and be a woman~!..ok rite now, stop talking about relationship and more about starbucks..

Sooooo...basically when im single, i have a lot of time and money to spend..hehe..coz, when im in a relationship i tend to save up money to go on dates and buy unnecessary stuff..yah, i know why ME? have to save up and not them?..frankly speaking, i was a stupid naive in love person and they are sometimes douchebag bf..and i am usually an independent person around guys so, yes!..like my "kakak" said " apsal ko bodoh sgt nie!!"..but to my defense, "she" is also like that when she was married the first time!..so we learn from our lessons ok!!..hehe..btw, sayang my kakak and my budak kecik..:)
*no offense to my exes, but sometimes i must think YOU are ALL douchebag ok!..u all broke my heart..what more nice thing that i can said about you guys??..*

soooooo, back to starbucks story..nowadays i have this routine with Mulan to go drink at our nearest starbucks shop,so basically i am addicted to starbucks and the guy behind the counter just add bonus to it..hehe.. i like their toffee nut frappucino blended so much that i must drink it before christmas ends..bcoz its only during promo..so basically what i want to say is, no bf = a lot of money..hahahahha..
so next time i will write more what i buy with the money i save and maybe i can be happy knowing i had made a right decision to just eff up from his life and make sure he is happy with his current "domestic" life..coz in the end, letting go is a must to make sure you are happy in the future..so pray i will meet my "domestic" life soon..:)..

Later~...

Relationship part 1

I think i learn the most out of relationship when i was with him..Until now, i can still remember his words when he talk to me about guys and their wickedness..on how i said " i rindu u lahh.." and he will reply, " jgn kata i xrindu u, sbb i rindu u sgt"..effing rite?..hahaha...and its funny because in the end, he will become my ex and not my 'jodoh'..

Its a funny thing about 'jodoh'...because we all knew about "If its god will, it will happen sooner or later.."..but can i said that " i want it now!..i dont want to wait until im older and he is old to become one.."..how ungrateful do i sound huh?..yes, thats me back in time when i was so "IN LOVE"...i will never regret whoever that i choose to be in love and have a relationship with, but he always going to be my standard point you know?..he is different from "A" becoz he is more mature and if people know who am i talking about, "HE" is a taboo person.. the taboo one that i learn a lot from and will always learn again and again..i still think about him, alot..my "kakak" said its because its normal to think about that person eventhough it hurts to think about them..seems inlogical right?..but,hell..she has the more grueling experience than me..so i choose to listen on her about that sort of thing..

so basically,whether they are thinking about you when you are not together anymore..hurm..i wish he thinks about me, the good time, the bad time and the love time..but hell, if he wish to undo our time, that is the most heartbreaking thing that he can do towards me now..but its his own life..so whatever floats his boat..coz, for me, lesson learn from having a relationship with him is that:

1) I become more mature, in a way..
2) Dont trust people that easily..
3) Saying NO is important when handling with stupid asshole future guys/bf
4) Take care of yourself in every situation, regardless of gender and status of the other people in the room.
5) I am weird and very very picky and effing irritating but never did realize it until when i notice he has "THAT" attitude with me..
6) The list go on..

But the first thing that i learn from him is that, it will always going to be Needles and Pins towards life..*tears*...

Later...~

i dont like pressure, nowadays...

i dont like it!...hell i dont even want to message or bb some one if i dont want to!!!!...so back off!!!!!...arggghhhhhh....im stress with all this people that dont get it!!!..ive changed!..maybe its good, maybe its not, its still 50/50 from what i see now..but i changed!!..i dont need you if i think you are going to pull me down!..i want some real person that care for me!..not want something for me!!...so back off!!!!!...i just end a relationship that i dont want to end..so i dont want to be clingy anymore, coz i made a mistake of loving that person too much, that i cant seem to get out of the shadow...!...so back off i say!!!!!...let go of me from your suffocating annoying crap!!!

Opposite of war is not peace..Its CREATION...

i was so in love..in love with love..thats what i called when everytime i do fall in love..i only fall a handful of times..got a lot of this thing called "flair-flair"..but when i did fall in love, i fall hard and it hurts when i wake up...

This one guy..he was the one..yup he is..when Mulan, Ariel and Jasmine talk to me about who is my current bf..i will always and always compare all the upcoming guy with this one..but nobody will have the same feel as him..know why?..coz he passed away..

the moment i heard about the news, i was so devastated..keep on crying till morning..back then, i knew who are my true friends..They were by my side in an instant..

but....life moved on rite?..its hard, but you just have to pick up, shake it off and pretend to be happy for awhile and maybe the smile will stick to your face for the whole day...

* this is just a rambling post..coz my head is so jumble up rite now, the story i want to write will not came out right..so later..

Bosan

Hahaha...Xder FB so focus kat blog la pulak..leh x...biar ah..kat sini nobody leh comment or like or whatsoever..

sux kan 2011...hurmmm...nk tunggu for the year 2012 n hopefully my life will be much much better, insyaallah..later in other post i will tell my sadness..coz gradually i need this therapy of writing everything down to forget all my heartache and broken heart..

later..♥