Relationship part 1

I think i learn the most out of relationship when i was with him..Until now, i can still remember his words when he talk to me about guys and their wickedness..on how i said " i rindu u lahh.." and he will reply, " jgn kata i xrindu u, sbb i rindu u sgt"..effing rite?..hahaha...and its funny because in the end, he will become my ex and not my 'jodoh'..

Its a funny thing about 'jodoh'...because we all knew about "If its god will, it will happen sooner or later.."..but can i said that " i want it now!..i dont want to wait until im older and he is old to become one.."..how ungrateful do i sound huh?..yes, thats me back in time when i was so "IN LOVE"...i will never regret whoever that i choose to be in love and have a relationship with, but he always going to be my standard point you know?..he is different from "A" becoz he is more mature and if people know who am i talking about, "HE" is a taboo person.. the taboo one that i learn a lot from and will always learn again and again..i still think about him, alot..my "kakak" said its because its normal to think about that person eventhough it hurts to think about them..seems inlogical right?..but,hell..she has the more grueling experience than me..so i choose to listen on her about that sort of thing..

so basically,whether they are thinking about you when you are not together anymore..hurm..i wish he thinks about me, the good time, the bad time and the love time..but hell, if he wish to undo our time, that is the most heartbreaking thing that he can do towards me now..but its his own life..so whatever floats his boat..coz, for me, lesson learn from having a relationship with him is that:

1) I become more mature, in a way..
2) Dont trust people that easily..
3) Saying NO is important when handling with stupid asshole future guys/bf
4) Take care of yourself in every situation, regardless of gender and status of the other people in the room.
5) I am weird and very very picky and effing irritating but never did realize it until when i notice he has "THAT" attitude with me..
6) The list go on..

But the first thing that i learn from him is that, it will always going to be Needles and Pins towards life..*tears*...

Later...~