pic..

dinner of textile for the last graduate batch..(that is me and my friends..) the theme is "GLAMOROUS BLACK AND GOLD"..and truly the rebelliuos me..i didnt follow the code of black and gold fashion just wear whatever that i want..hahaha...so what..its my dinner and is just only that i care whatever that i am wearing...so here is some of the pic..and we did perform , the whole class in fact perform..but due to some of the 'explicit' (hahahaha) content i cant post the vid ..
we imitate the ONE IN A MILLION show..me being the second winner and Aishah Attaullah being the winner of OIAM and yes i did sing (only mimed it ..hehehe) and the explicit content that i mention is when duet with Aishah and Nik singing lagu Drama by Ning Baizura..is like oh my god~~ is so embarrassing hence the explicit content ..hahaha..but here is some of the pic for the night..

Dia...

yesterday nmpak 'dia'...
wow..its been so long..~~leh lak think back again on the long time that i have a crush on 'dia'...or what i say to people "love"...that is all is serious bullshit..there is no love when you are 16 years old..its not love when you are the one that love "dia"only...it should be a 2 way street..but my mind is being childish and immature back in the days..the days when 'dia' the only person that i think treat me as a girl..
hurm...so yesterday when i nmpak n nmpak in this way is nmpak n not tegur..
so ...when 'nmpak' 'dia'..
i feel that all the love that i feel back then is just my childish feeling..hell...i will always think 'dia' is my true love..but im not THAT childish to think that right now hes the one for me...yah pretty much to say of my first ever guy to fall for..so wish you happy and no hard feelings anyway that you are happy with the one that you fall in love when you are 17...( look back at my third line sentence)..hahahahah...no2 maybe its true love for him..n mybe im being bitter..but neva mind all that..just wnated to lepaskan my feeling jer on this post..so..end~~

uni life~~

tomorrow will be the 7th of Mac..have a test on environment (study!!!) and exactly 7 days from there will be the Dinner!...the end of the year dinner..the end of my era as a university student and as s textile student in Uitm..its just mean that, my thesis presentation are quite near and i just going to be more freak out when the day(presentation) come ..but that another story..but wow..3 years~! its kinda true when people say, "Sekejap jer 3 tahun tue, pejam celik pejam celik dh grad!"..
YUP!! its true!..
i feel its just like yesterday i have a graduation ceremony for my high school..its like baru tdi jer dpt the feel of staying in a hostel in matrix and sleeping in a area that my parents are not there with me..its just minutes ago i feel and experienced the drama and tribulation of having friends and growing up in uni life..
so here it comes..the end of the sem..the point where the next step is for me to get a job and a life that is my own..but okay, that we'll freak out later..(as i will going to be more freak out later when i will grad nnt,insyaallah!)
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so the drama,...wow!! my life is full of that in uni life..every sem has new set of worries and set of drama that came with it..first year, means the first 2 sem i baru jer nk sesuaikan diri..you know, being the person thats trying to fit in, having friends that i hope will last forever but actually are not that realistic when i think back..but i am happy s ..i really WERE or is it WAS?..happy..in fact the moment drama start to kick in thats when i realise that the actual cause of the drama is a lot of things..
me being the person i am..
its me wanted to venture out..
its me that cant stay in one place and be satisfied..
its me that always have the same record of jumping groups that matches with my interest and desire on that moment..
and its me that feel comfortable in that moment...
and if its me that have a problem..hurm..maybe its true..but i will never say that i cause the problem..
its just a spur of a moment when the moment happen with alot of different things connected..you just think "i need to get new life".."need to escape from any heartache that may come"..
so im sorry if "them" ever read this post first before i actually apologise to "them" personally..
some of "them" are hurt when the drama broke down at first time..but eventually you've got your own set of group..and i see "them" feel happy so be it..maybe its the best kut?..cause somebody say that " aku rasa ko lagi ok kut ngn people yg skang"..and actually THAT triggers me to think..and i mean, to think hard and clear on what happen in the second year..on what happen when i being piss off when you didnt back up me when i need you..when you choose other people beside me..
i never hate "them"..some people say that i blame "them"?.."them being the couple and me being the one odd out, im being terasa becoz of it?"..come on!..why must i terasa or blame anybody?..and you shouldnt be blaming me either..its just, them are them and i am me...whatever it comes down to hate or love or friendship..its been great knowing "them"..and its been a great journey of friendship..
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its been a week?..wow..

its been a week now..whats happen in a week time?....lots! of! it!..i went to BSB concert which is so freaking superb..*no pic due to the fact that ym is becoming suckier everyday by the week..*
AND
* i dont own a camera!*..yah, idiot me also..who in this time of technology age doesnt own a camera or atleast a 2.0 megapixel handphone camera?..who? ME of coz!..
so have a little bit of pic right now ..but will have more by the end of the week..i hope so..just pic of us..NO BSB!..waaaaa...so sad that they dont have an autograph session or atleast a picture session with the fan..
but we took lots of picture of us of coz..being the camera freak of a bunch of girls that we are..
(this is some of pic that ym "let me" have)