uni life~~

tomorrow will be the 7th of Mac..have a test on environment (study!!!) and exactly 7 days from there will be the Dinner!...the end of the year dinner..the end of my era as a university student and as s textile student in Uitm..its just mean that, my thesis presentation are quite near and i just going to be more freak out when the day(presentation) come ..but that another story..but wow..3 years~! its kinda true when people say, "Sekejap jer 3 tahun tue, pejam celik pejam celik dh grad!"..
YUP!! its true!..
i feel its just like yesterday i have a graduation ceremony for my high school..its like baru tdi jer dpt the feel of staying in a hostel in matrix and sleeping in a area that my parents are not there with me..its just minutes ago i feel and experienced the drama and tribulation of having friends and growing up in uni life..
so here it comes..the end of the sem..the point where the next step is for me to get a job and a life that is my own..but okay, that we'll freak out later..(as i will going to be more freak out later when i will grad nnt,insyaallah!)
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so the drama,...wow!! my life is full of that in uni life..every sem has new set of worries and set of drama that came with it..first year, means the first 2 sem i baru jer nk sesuaikan diri..you know, being the person thats trying to fit in, having friends that i hope will last forever but actually are not that realistic when i think back..but i am happy s ..i really WERE or is it WAS?..happy..in fact the moment drama start to kick in thats when i realise that the actual cause of the drama is a lot of things..
me being the person i am..
its me wanted to venture out..
its me that cant stay in one place and be satisfied..
its me that always have the same record of jumping groups that matches with my interest and desire on that moment..
and its me that feel comfortable in that moment...
and if its me that have a problem..hurm..maybe its true..but i will never say that i cause the problem..
its just a spur of a moment when the moment happen with alot of different things connected..you just think "i need to get new life".."need to escape from any heartache that may come"..
so im sorry if "them" ever read this post first before i actually apologise to "them" personally..
some of "them" are hurt when the drama broke down at first time..but eventually you've got your own set of group..and i see "them" feel happy so be it..maybe its the best kut?..cause somebody say that " aku rasa ko lagi ok kut ngn people yg skang"..and actually THAT triggers me to think..and i mean, to think hard and clear on what happen in the second year..on what happen when i being piss off when you didnt back up me when i need you..when you choose other people beside me..
i never hate "them"..some people say that i blame "them"?.."them being the couple and me being the one odd out, im being terasa becoz of it?"..come on!..why must i terasa or blame anybody?..and you shouldnt be blaming me either..its just, them are them and i am me...whatever it comes down to hate or love or friendship..its been great knowing "them"..and its been a great journey of friendship..
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