~i miss loving him~

i miss loving him~
i miss all the talks~
i miss all the laughs~
i miss all the lepaking~
i miss all the idiots thing he does~
i miss how he can be weird sometimes~
i miss that way of him when he dosnt talk~
i miss him being "mysterious"
i never did understand the WHOLE him but i still miss ALL of him~
i miss how he can make me happy~
i miss the way i smile when im with him~
i miss his smile~
i miss the way i can get flustered just by sitting beside him~
i even miss him smoking that stupid cancer stick~
i miss when the time is not NOW..
i miss the memory~
i miss HIM~
i miss LOVING him~
i know its onesided but i still miss it~
i know he doesnt look at me THAT way but i still miss it~
i know he is happy right now~
but i wish i am happy beside him~
i know im supposed to be move on a long time ago, trust me I AM MOVE ON~~ i have a lot of relationship but i still miss the thing i have for him~
maybe its a mistake, maybe its a lesson for me but for now i just want to say I miss him~

i still do cause for me he is my true First Love ..even he doesn't reciprocated the feelings..i still do feel jealous for his girlfriend(yes i say it~!..like Pink say "so what")

i wish we can meet and talk like before..
i wish i never did like him THAT way..but i do and i never regretted it..
i wish we are stuck at seventeen(him 17 and i 16)
i wish that we are close like old days..

i know this is just a rambling from my part..i know he dosnt miss me like i do for him..i know its sad and pathetic but i still feel this feeling so i cant do anything about it..so i miss you so much that everytime i do remeber you i cant get you out of my mind that fast and the only way is to do this stuff to make me feel better..

i know you will never read my profile so whatever~~ miss you so much,52625