Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Official Lyric Video)

Wow...Hundreds of meaning in this song...~

I wont Give Up..I'm Still Looking UP...

I told you so and my mistake..

"I told you so"....

I hated that word..i remember falling in love and people saying "Jangan, dont do this mistake"..but me being stubborn," Its ok, my mistake so i want to learn"..But hell, i already give this fucking loser countless and countless of opportunity..Its been ages and finally all the things that keep me coming back to him is finish..FINALLY!, no more calling up and asking for the "thing"..So, right now its just about me and him..but you never learn huh?..dont tell me my perangai is sucks when your perangai is like an effing child..i choose to lose you ages ago, i can do it again lah LOSER!!...

I always mengharap..my mistake huh?...haishhh...harap people call me and say that they miss me just as much i miss them, harap people change and be more like a person than a child..harap that you love me more and choose me than anybody else..but its just that "harap", its not reality...maybe i can love them always and forever but i gonna stop this thing of "mengharap"..coz in reality of life is that, "when people said goodbye it means that, "Bye".."...
I always always gonna love him, the OTHER him, not the loser him, the "sun" him....i already started to forget his voice and laugh and it makes me wanna cry so hard but its for the best i think..and its just time to move on cos i ve got big plan for 2012 and maybe its better to be alone than to handle all this feelings..

Dont cry when the sun is gone, because the tears wont let you see the stars ~ Violet Parra



Later...

My one and only

You've been on my mind, I grow fonder every day
Lose myself in time just thinking of your face
God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all
You'll never know if you never try
To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

If I've been on your mind, you hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all
You'll never know if you never try
To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy giving up your heart

Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me, I've learned it
Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me, I've learned it

Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me, I've learned it
Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me I've learned it

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

Come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

P/s: The words of Adele " This song is about me loving him then but right now i just dont love him anymore"..

Weird, emo and psycho..

I miss you, sun..

Later..

2012..

2012..Happy New Year?...pfffttt....

MC, wisdom tooth and pain..

Ive got a medical leave today..wow..the first for this year?..i cant remember the last time ive got a MC..usually i get sick but normally i just pull my AL and just put it on MC, coz in J company when you get a MC in your attendance you dont get a bonus or salary raise..*thats one of the reason i quit..;)*..sooooo, my wisdom teeth are finally growing and let me tell you, whatever things that Jasmine said about the pain..ITS DAMN TRUE!!..coz it hurts like hell!!..good luck this week we dont have any tenders or any potential tenders coming in..because on of the reason i dislike MC coz i am YES a WORKHOLIC..i like holidays and such but i hate when i have to spend it at home thus the terms WORKHOLIC..cos i like to be in the office more than home?..nahhh, cos in the office now, ive got to talk and bitch about people and we got unifi ok..so yes, i prefer places where my internet is effing fast and there is people for me to talk to.
not to say i dont like my home, i love it..but when i work, i dont think about how sucky my past relationships and how i hate missing him..so work is my escape from my memories..it is sad when you think about it, but its my mechanism to survive until i can truly say " I am over with him "..hurmmmm...depressing mode tiba2..shit..

BUT whatever is, i have a day off today so lets make it worthwhile..i.e: continue reading my comics and novel online(check), playing with little archie(check), watching movies(check), eat your medicine before writing this post(opppsss, i forgot)...

So later...~~~...

P/s: just saw MI4(Ghost Protocol) and it was AMAZING...!!!!Tom Cruise is the best!..and Jeremy Renner?..*swoon*...

Friendship, Starbucks and Pelita...

Its a weird thing about friendship..
As you know, true friend/s will just accept you no matter what you do and what you are right?..
I have many experience of this so called thing "FRIENDSHIP"..but the one that i hope and i pray to god that will never go away is them...
Because in a way every person has their own personality that they bring in a friendship..Dont get me wrong, i always and will always call Mulan a bitch everytime she do the eye roll thingy..I will always be annoyed and irritate with Ariel on her attitude of not picking up the phone when i need her the most..Of wanting to smack Jasmine head when shes being insecure..but hell, im a bitch most of the time too..im an annoying person mostly ALL the time and i am very judgmental when i want to be that person. But we click...we click in sense of everybody need to branch out and have their own circle of friends but basically coming back together and be our true selves.

Yesterday we have our little gathering in Pelita, but before that me and Mulan have our usual caffeine fix at starbucks (bcoz hell!..im already addicted with the taste!..and shit it costs me RM17.50 everytime i drink it, but its my indulgence once a week so sue me for backing up a jewish company or whatsoever!..)
Btw, Mulan drink are shit and taste like grass or Jasmine said " Rasa macam ko minum daun", and yes it taste like "daun"..the drink?..Its called Green Tea Cream Blended..and mine its called Mocha something with cranberry sauce on top..*its a christmas drink promo and i LOVE IT!!..*

Here is some pictures just for the sake of my entertainment..:)



Mine..



Mulan's....


SO btw about friendship, we have our ups and downs as a group, we sometimes bitch about each other, hate each other but in the end truly-truly i do love this girls..I even haves exes that hate them, because i talk to them about everything includes my love life and what im doing now with my boyfriend, my argument with my boyfriend ..But basically that i do love them so much, and sometimes we do get on each other nerves and hated each other at one point, but like Mulan said to me yesterday * i paraphrase her words, of course.."Maybe we just need to delete any hateness and grudges coz value of friendship is much higher than our own egos.."..

So later..;)..♥...